second entry of the day..didn't do any hw..haiz..i'm too lazy...i getting lazier!! arrgh!! watch tv all day..sianz.. haiz..i'm so lousy in my life...with nothing at all..nothing in my life..unlike..... btw..gerald's back from genting..hahaz..
why must i be like that again and again? why just can't i suppress myself? why? i know i have no more chance.. but in the deepest part of my mind... some signs of hope is still hiding there.. but..what is the use? i have no more chance.. i'm even think that i'm getting more and more frightening with all those thoughts... can i be what i used to be? as if u had never appeared.. i wish i can... i truely wish that i can.. i'm trying hard to do so... my first time getting so miserable.. but..come to think of it.. maybe it's all a false alarm... i sincerely hope so...
